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an enigma for Jean-Jacques Lequeu
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Prelude-
Were the temples you built
a new home
for the whores that you loved?
Are there labyrinthine corridors that
confuse outsiders, creating
an hypnotic trail, a meditation, an end?
The nun looks out the window at the top of the temple,
sitting down, I can see the reflection of her habit
crawling up her ass.
1-
Sister Cecilia has turned her back--
Sister Cecila has turned and now gazes--
her exposed breasts a beacon of direction.
"Follow."
Her body emotes, but her face reveals nothing,
floating down the hallways, colonnades on
both sides.
A veritable forest is visible behind the temple--
though it's [artificial] layout deceives.
It's nothing
but a large, stoic, French garden.
The possibility of getting lost inside
it's twists
and
turns
makes me curious enough [...]
(but) I keep following.
"There,"
she points to a small, adorned door that I
push open--
2-
Once inside the room--
a spacious blank canvas of wall,
decorated by three congruous windows,
a hollow dome above my head, walls more than
thrice
my height.
Directly out the central window I see a large dome,
a flame erupting out of the top.
Through a window in it's utter center I can see a man
glimpsing out.
He ducks away as he catches my eye.
(For a moment I imagine it's my possible lover,
but he is far away from where I am right
now.)
3-
I turn around to face the single mirror
in my boudoir, but the reflection
of my face (twisted, yearning) startles me--
my suitcase falls and a fading
photograph
of my possible lover
falls
out.
I reach down and pick it up.
I compare the picture to the vestige
left in the window of the dome.
The flame goes out.
I walk to the window and
call out his name.
The only response is a hollow echo from
my chamber.
(Everything is symmetrical in this place;
even the echo resounds consonantly.)
In bed, I sleep,
In dream, I fly.
4-
I awake, a sister knocking--
"Sir? Breakfast."
And footsteps follow down
the hall.
I arise and look out my window
once more.
The man is there again,
but this time
he stays.
I stare and decide that yes,
that is my possible lover,
he has followed me here.
But as I wave, looking for
acknowledgment
He simply stares back,
v a c a n t l y.
And it's then I know that my
possible lover
is not possible.
And the hollow halls echo my thoughts,
(for the Merzbau was just an empty tomb)
and it's my body that's a temple of erotic misery.
Epilogue-
"My baby says, my baby says,
we can live in the empty spaces of this life."
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